By The Light of The Moon

Hello readers!

Well I'm kind of being very curious on TVD Season 3 recently. I don't think I'm the only one who keep thinking about this, well as a fan who actually follows Season 3 of TVD would have the same thing in their minds as mine! :P

I am very curious on WHO is the person that Klaus kept in the coffin? Why can't it be opened?

I think that the person in the coffin is the original petrova doppelganger. I once read from some sources and came into an info regarding the first doppelganger in the Petrova bloodline - Charlotte Petrova.

This original Petrova must be someone important to Klaus and Elijah at that time.. Maybe before they even became vampires.

Maybe Klaus loved Charlotte (the original petrova doppelganger) and Elijah loved her too. And as soon as Klaus became a vampire and also a werewolf, he wanted to break the curse. The witches dislike Klaus (he said so himself, probably because the witches knew for long that he killed his mother, idk) so they put a curse on Klaus and in order to break the curse, he must have the moonstone, he must rip out a werewolf's heart, stake a vampire at the heart and also sacrifice a doppelganger and drink her blood. They thought that Klaus wouldn't want to kill the one that he loved but did not expect that he would go that far, killing Charlotte. And since Klaus believed in the witches that the doppelganger has to die, Klaus failed to become a hybrid even after Charlotte was killed, so he waited for another doppelganger which is Katherine. Elijah who loved Charlotte did not want Katherine to experience the same death as Charlotte did so he wanted to help Katherine escape but in a dilemma because it was his brother's need.

Doesn't this make sense? After Klaus could not succeed in sacrificing Katherine upon knowing that she had turned into a vampire so he gave up, killing all her family members. But when he find out about Elena he wanted to do the ritual. It was lucky for Elena to be alive again and Klaus figured out about everything (about the witches lied to him about the doppelganger curse) then finally could sire his own hybrids using Elena, the doppelganger's blood.

Remember when Katherine first met Elijah and he said "I'm sorry, you remind me of someone" and soon they have sort of a romantic relationship before Katherine escaped. In the same episode, Elijah said that he and Klaus used to fall in love before. It could be that both of them fell in love with the same girl (Charlotte Petrova). Rebekah in the third season said "the Original was much more pretty" and in episode 5 of season 3, Rebekah asked "is that what this is about? You obsession with hybrids, you just don’t want to be alone?" and Klaus replied "what I want, is to take my girl, my hybrid the hell out of this one pony town." That 'my girl' might refer to the one he still keeps in his coffin, and it could be the Original Petrova doppelganger.

However this is not a SPOILER - it is merely my instinct after the somewhat spoilers- reading thing and after I gathered all the relevant clues and made up my own theory. Anyway, let's just wait and see what happen in the upcoming episodes. Gosh, this is getting really exciting with much more of Delena scenes and the appearances of the Originals!

I wish the endings would be like this;

Klaus - Charlotte Petrova (or if she died, I prefer him to be forever alone lol)

Stefan - Rebekah/Katherine

Damon - Elena hehehehe I'm Delena biased!

Elijah - holding a crush on Katherine maybe but keeps it to himself. In other words, a forever loner lol =D

Caroline - Tyler

Bonnie - Matt

Jeremy - Anna? is there any way to make her re-alive again?

Alaric - Dr. Fell 

They they would live happily ever after =)

Hello Readers! =D

Well, actually this is an overdue post. I was supposed to write this last week or before that but I just have the time to write it now. 

So, my 2011 ended well. All's well ends well I guess. So what have I accomplished in 2011? Let's see or the memories and accomplishments I've made during this one whole year:

January - Go through a month being a house maid 

February - Organized Gathering Dinner for 5 Terbilang classmates. Received compliments from the teachers for the well-organized event. Thanks for the helps, buddies! ^_^

March - Esther's birthday. Got my SPM results on that day too and achieved what I wanted =)

April - Applied UPU, Maktab, Politeknik & Went for Umrah. Which was unforgettable and wonderful. <3

May - Attended Maktab interview, got offer to study Foundation in Law at Kuantan. Got offer from matriks as well. Alhamdulillah what a victorious month I had =)

June - Furthered my studies in Law at Kuantan. Had my interview approved but I have to reject it for my Foundation studies. Celebrated my birthday with housemates <3

July - A month for assignments and mid semester break. Dad visited me in Kuantan and we roamed Kuantan together XD

August - Got to go home to celebrate Raya with friends and families <3

September - Final exams!

October - Semester break for one month plussss =D And sat for MUET speaking test.

November - Got my finals result and I got into DL. Weee <3

December - Pretty lame at first but ended nicely. Visited my parents and Nania in KL <3

So that was how it goes. Somehow I can see that 2011 has been a long year to go through, maybe that was a year where I first experiencing how does it feels like to be distant from people I love. Furthering my studies in Kuantan made me leave my loved ones behind. Maybe distance motivated me so much that I got what I aimed for. I thank Allah for making 2011 a victorious and memorable year for me. =)

So how about 2012? It just started and I could say, it was horrible at first and even now, but something happened today that makes me feel happy and that it makes me feel that January has done something good for me, at least one good thing for the beginning of the year. I started my 2012 by having to say goodbye to my parents at KL Sentral, and accidentally sprained my ankle. Assignments overloaded, short tests, presentations, forum presentations, and I'm still working on these things except for ONE short tests (out of how many I don't know) and also our forum presentation. 

And just now, I just got my MUET result and Alhamdulillah, I managed to get Band 4, which is considered a minimum requirement to pursue my Degrees in Law. I thank Allah so much for this. I thank Him so much that I will perform my Nazar soon. Thank you Allah. =)

However I feel sorry for some of my friends who did not managed to get through it. I am happy for myself, but it is not joyful enough because my friends, who are the ones that help me and be with me in going through this ordeal, could not survive in this ordeal themselves. I feel sorry because I don't know how to make them happy. Success is nothing if your loved ones are hurting. Dear Allah, please make them feel better. Make them feel happy. Dear friends, don't be sad. It't just the beginning and like what I always say, you don't know what Allah has decided for you to work on. He knows what's the best for you and your future. Success is on your way, only you don't know when is it going to happen, it's just a matter of time. You've worked hard and you'll reap what you sow soon. Be optimistic, loves. It is not the end of the world, although Mayan's calendars say 2012 as so. 2012 is not the year for the world to end, but it is a year for you to set on victorious new year resolutions <3

Well for my new year resolutions, I would say that I'm going to continue accomplishing my aims and plans so that I can strike through my wishes in my wishlist, indicating that it has been fulfilled. Somehow I do hope that this year will be another victorious year for me. I pray to Allah so that He will provide me strength, high motivations and love for me to carry on this journey of life. =) 

And before I end, I hope it's not too late for me to wish you a 

and 

Happy Chinese New Year!! 

Have a nice weekend and have a wonderful 2012 =) 

Hello Readers!

Remember I told you about me not going back to Kuching for midsem break and I'm not alone? There are few others who stayed in Kuantan together with me and we're all from the East Malaysia - Sabah and Sarawak. So, during this midsem break we couldn't go back because the plane fares were very expensive that we couldn't afford it. So here we are, all by ourselves in Kuantan when everyone has all gone back to celebrate Christmas and New Year together with their families. This is the disadvantage of studying 'overseas' lol =P

Anyway, yesterday my Borneo course mates and I hang out together to celebrate Christmas. So there were 10 of us, namely: Me, Husna, Efa, Suri, Ayeem, Sadiqi, Kabir, Chris, Bada and Ian. We went to KFC at East Coast Mall for lunch first. It was awkward at first because I never hang out with this bunch of guys before except Chris and Ayeem. But I managed to overcome the awkwardness after a while. They were friendly and very easy-going and I get comfortable with them easier than I expected. Then, Chris, as promised, bought us a big Baskins Robin ice cream oreo cake!

But the cake was really hard to be sliced that we have to take turns to divide it equally to everyone. Since the cake was made of ice cream, it melted and that made our table turn into a mess. But it was somehow delicious and appetizing! I think I should show this to Esther, so that she won't brag about her homemade cookies in front of me anymore. hahaha

So, after we had our lunch, all of us walked to MegaMall, another grand shopping mall in Kuantan and it was like few metres away but it was not that far actually. We went there to play games. Bada suggested that we should play bowling but the girls refused. As for me, I've never stepped into a bowling alley before, how can I play? I'm really sorry Bada =(

But Bada was okay with it, hahaha. He said so, I hope he meant it. hehehe. Then we went to archade to play games. I played Daytona but I don't know how to handle the machine and my car moved really slow and I don't know why. Hurrrr I defeated my cousins last time, why I did suck this time?!

I played other things as well. The others seem to enjoy themselves. I played basketball with Bada and think I scored more than him heheh ^0^ But he played really well in Boxing! I was like "whoaa!" the moment he punched the boxing bag.

Chris tried all sort of games he could play. Sadiqi and Kabir played counter strike or something along those lines. The shooting2 thing. Efa, Suri and Ayeem were just wandering and Ian could barely be seen. By me. hahah. Husna and I played a game apart from Daytona, which I don't know what was it called. It was like knocking the devils' popped out heads down or something. It was fun, really, although our wrists hurt after that. Well, it was because we didn't do warm-ups. lol

That was not enough to be called a day. We went to Apple K for karaoke. This was Bada's second idea and I thought of objecting it again but I pitied him that we've rejected his idea on playing bowling once. However now that I think it again, it was a good thing that I didn't object it because it was super duper funnn!!!! We sang our hearts out although I didn't hold the microphone, but seriously it was superrr epic!! Of course, the ones who conquered the microphone were Bada, Efa and Kabir but singing along with them makes the room more happening and merrier! Two thumbs up to Bada for coming up with this idea, I did not regret it at all! XD 

Maybe it was because I've never gone karaokae-ing with my best friends because all of us were Queens of Monotone so I've never experienced such fun, only with my cousins because my cousins were all Karaoke addicts. lol

Then..... then we took pictures together at the entrance before going back. It was fun, really! To think about it, at least December has done something good for me. And at least I have a bit of memories with other course mates apart from my housemates during this Foundation studies. 

Let me introduce you to some of my course mates if you still don't know :D 

And the thing to ponder is that, I think 2011 seems to be the longest year I've ever gone through in my entire life. I experienced hardships at the same time I created a lot of beautiful memories so I can say that 2011 is a very meaningful year. Well, every year is, right? But anyway, lets keep the rest for my next entry. I'll talk everything about new year and end year in that upcoming post. Do catch up alright!

Anyway, thanks to my Borneo course mates for the amazing day I had yesterday. Thanks for helping me create the memories at least before we all finish our Foundation studies. Love you guys so much, you people are awesome to the max! =D

Hello readers :D

So, my weekend is still not over yet, but I have gone through half of it. And it was kinda terrible, really. Apart from having to burn midnight oils for the Economics and Islamic Studies tests, we were bombarded with another unwonted Social Psychology short test. And the tests were conducted one after another, without any gap at all. Okay I was exaggerating. Actually there were a few gaps. After the Social Psychology test, we have like 2 hours to study for Islamic studies. Then we had classes all day up till 11pm. It's late I know, but I think our batch is the only batch in UiTM or probably in other universities that have 29 credit hours, which exceeds the maximum matriculation's credit hours, 21 c.h. That explains my tight schedule. And by the time I reached my room which is on the 4th floor without the elevator , I was really exhausted that I have to FORCE myself to stay up for the Economics test on the next day.

I stayed up and woke up early yesterday and went to the class with that unnoticeable panda eyes I always have during high school stayed-up-moment-of-watching-Korean-drama times. And Husna greeted me with her favourite lines of sarcasm: "You would probably excel in this short test" and "You're as good as the lecturer" luls.

And all in all, I suck in all of the tests, seriously. Like effingly suck. If the tests require the failed ones to commit suicide, I would be honoured to ask for a knife and kill myself at that instant.

Not only that, it has been raining continuously for three days and it causes difficulties for me to move around, especially moving back and forth from Sekilau to Padang Lalang for lectures and tutorial classes which were conducted at these two places. This is what you get when you have a campus which is as small as my primary school, without the canteen and the teachers' headquarters. It feels like moving around in a swimming pool for kids or a wading pool. Added by the non-stop rain which makes me want to enjoy a failed flirting attempt of Bella Swan moment for a while: "I don't like the rain; any cold, wet things, I don't really like it." and on the spur of this moment, can I just love Bella and give her two thumbs up for the Twilight quote? 

I should not blame the nature. Forgive me Allah. It's my own fault for always forgetting my expensive Angry Birds umbrella. I think that if the birds were alive, they would have really got angry with me for neglecting them. Apart from that, I have set on my 'Maggi diet' due to the rain and difficulties to move around. I just hope that the Maggi won't give me any serious impact on my brain, hopefully.

But to compare my not so dramatic college life with Esther's I think her November could be awarded the best Drama ever and could even win the Hollywood Film Awards. In some way, I do pity her, but I know she's a strong girl who can go through all the drama because she's a born diva. 

Anyway, whatever my hectic college life is going to be in the future, I just hope I can endure it and go through it patiently. Yes you can, strong-willed Dayah. Hwaiting! =D Hey, there isn't much time left for the midsem break! Although it's kinda sad that I'm not going back and even my colleagues who are supposed to celebrate Christmas with their families in Sarawak and Sabah will also be staying here in Kuantan, we have planned to hang out together during Christmas! We'll roam Kuantan and shop till we drop! haha just kidding. XD

Midsem break may not bring any difference for us Sarawakians and Sabahans but we're hoping to create a memory of it, to create at least a bit of memories here during my Foundation studies so that I won't whine about my pathetic Foundation life in this campus to my children in the future. But hey, I don;t think it will make any difference towards the other Semenanjung students as well since we all have assignments to be done! hahahaha well at least it's fair and square lol XP

And oh, I'll be going to Kay Elle on the 31st of December to meet my parents. Mum, Dad and Nania will be around in KL to attend a relative's wedding so they'll be in KL until the 2nd of January, 2012. So I'll be travelling to KL all by myself, by bus, and will be staying at a hotel together with my parents. Heyyyy I can't wait to meet them! Let't just hope that I can reach them safe and sound because I will be travelling ALONE by bus, you see. Which is my very first experience. But it's okay though. I've been into flight journeys alone as well, so what's the difference anyway, right?

Anyway, Christmas is coming soon, 2011 is going to end soon. I'm going to make an entry on End Year and New Year so catch up with it soon alright?

And Nazri's PMR result will be announced TODAY at 10.00am. Which reminds me of my 'dunia ini ana yang punya' victorious moments of having only 1 slacked B in my PMR's result slip. Which was something unexpected for a dumbo like me. Good luck, Nazri and all the PMR students! May Allah be by your side. Amin =)

So, before I doze off  to dream land, let me just wish you a Happy Christmas and Merry Holidays!

Oh wait no.

I have to pen off now. I have to prepare for tomorrow's BEL332 presentation. Bye!

Hello Readers :D

December, like I mentioned previously has been all fine UNTIL my lecturers announced that we're gonna have tests next week. One is CTU082 short test and another one is ECO099~ THE BLOODY ECONOMICS.

die die dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :c

So, my weekend is not gonna be as relaxing as the way I expected it to be. I need to do laundries (just hope that it's not gonna rain tomorrow!) and study. Yeah, study for the bloody economics and Islamic studies. Which is as scary as F**K FIRE! in a straw house, in the woods, on the windy days, with the gasoline everywhere on the straw~

Oh, some people who read my previous post asked me yesterday whether I'm okay or not. Yeah, I daresay. After a long phone conversation with Nisa and Salam, I feel much better now. Thanks, best friends. Which is why I can never hate them, I can't thank them enough for what they have done to bring me back to what I once define as life. They know how to make me happy and give useful advice. I didn't call Esther and Fyraz simply because I don't want to trouble them with my troubles. I'm pretty sure that they have their own burdens to lessen. But I miss them though, really.

 I don't know what exactly the thing that makes me feel depressed lately. Not only that, I noticed that my emotions are unstable and I have irregular menstrual cycle lately. I feel paranoid easily and I'm quite sensitive lately. I get sad easily and happy for the next  hours. I don't fucking know what the hell is actually wrongg with meee :c

Is it because I'm homesick? Is it because of the rainy season? That it's always raining and it somehow affects my emotion to be as gloomy as the cloudy weather?  Is it due to stress? But I'm in a state of a slow recovery now, I guess. I'm not sure if this lasts since I just had the phone conversation like a few hours ago, so I am fine. At least for now. But anyway, let's just hope that this will last, alright?

I google the terms depression, irregular periods, paranoia, unstable emotions and sensitive together and the first result that came out was;

arggghhhhhhhh nuuuuuuuuuuu :c Don't turn me into that! I will fucking kill you without me realizing it!!

Urghhhh my life is seriously fucked up. Should I consult a doctor?

A doctor is too busy to entertain me I think, checking on preggy mothers are more useful rather than checking on me. hurrrr :/

or should i just consult a psychiatrist instead?

I might end up in Tanjung Rambutan - a place for insane retards.

Cruel, ain't I?

KILL ME.

I haven't told my Mum about this yet. I mean, this problem of mine because I just don't know what to say to them. And I bet our conversation might just be a waste because Mum will keep asking "what's wrong?" and I will keep replying "I don't know how to describe it!" 

Tell me, what should I do now? Fuck this thing. 

I don't know why I'm feeling all gloomy today. I feel like crying but I can't cry. I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I can't tell my Mum nor call my friends, I just don't know what to say to them because I don't know why exactly I am feeling like this. I can't cry alone, so I keep it all to myself. And keeping all these things to myself is rather agonizing. At this moment, I miss my family, my best friends, my cousins, my classmates, I miss high school times so  much. I miss childhood times. I miss the memories of childhood which most of the time, I spent it with my family, with my parents. 

I miss having fun, smile and laugh, taking pictures together, having myself being dressed appropriately by Mum so that I would look pretty in the camera pictures. I miss how my parents asked me to behave and in return of my good deeds I did to them, they would buy me and my siblings balloons with colours of our own choice. I miss going out with my family even though we were just eating Pizza at Waterfront at night when my parents were less busy with work. I miss holding hands with my Mum and my Dad, together with my other siblings when we were about to cross the road. I miss the times when my Mum and Dad did not have to think about working extra hours, think about the house chores, did not have to worry about sickness nor fatigue at old age. I miss those times, really. :'(

Not only that, I also miss the old times when I can freely scream, laugh out loud, sing and gossiping with my classmates.

I miss having Fyraz, Esther and Nisa with me buying ice-creams and when we have extra money, we would buy 'Jelly Kelapa' and sometimes Sundae Cup. And we would peek what type of ice-cream our hermit crab of the school Fitri 'Nakpaya' would buy. I miss stalking and watching every steps of Haha towards the staff room and Prefects Room with my besties. I miss stalking Taecyeon, CDK, Bubo Mamak and the gang, with my besties. I miss those times. I miss the times where I could scream enthusiastically in front of Mdm. Beatris the moment I spotted Haha passing by our classroom.  I miss the excitements. Not because of my deep crush on him that ignites the feeling, it's because I was with my best friends who wouldn't mind me sharing all my joys with them. 

I always have a dream of having a best buds' sleepover and some sort of slumber party (i know we're grown ups but I always want to do that with my best friends) where we can chat talk sing laugh and dance all night until we're tired and finally dozed off without having to worry about anything that makes our life fucked up. I always want to bring my best friends to shop for stuffs and we would go and buy stuffs together. I always dream of having a vacation with my best friends, picnic, swimming and stuffs. I want to do those things which best friends would do and how I wish I can do it now. I miss my girl friends, seriously. ='(

Let's just wait, girls. We'll be able to do that and rock our own world soon. =)

Hello Readers!

The first two weeks of December has been great for me. Although the schedule was super tight, I guess i can handle it already, and adapt myself with the 'busyness' =D

Well, actually I was supposed to be having 2 presentations on last Monday; first one is a group presentation LAW037 and the second one is BEL332- The Art of Public Speaking but our lecturer cancelled the lecture at the last minute so that left me with only one presentation on that day, LAW037 which basically about legal system during Malacca and Dutch administration. The topic sounds an easy task but actually it was rather confusing, especially when you refer to books with different authors and what's worst, they wrote different facts. My colleague and I have to really explore and research deeply so that I can understand, which will make my presentation informative and understandable. 

I have planned everything in my mind and even jot down in my note book roughly some points and a few script that can help me to remember while presenting, because you know, sometimes I can easily forget what I want to say when I am distracted, or even not. Esther calls it Brain Hiccup so that is it. 

So when it was my turn to present, I did quite smoothly during the whole time of presentation, except that I read the slide very fast that I'm not sure whether the others can get my points or not, but I did explain. This always happen especially when I'm nervous. Whenever I'm nervous I often suffer these 3 things:

1. I stutter a lot while speaking.

2. I talk really fast and read really quickly.

3. I sweat, get stomachache and I might blurt out silly things.

Clumsy much, eh?

And out of these three symptoms, I only did not get sweat and stomachache, probably because I'm used to an audience of 30 to 40 students. I was nervous because that was my first presentation for this semester and it was done in front of my new classmates. The embarrassing moment was that while I was about to finish presenting, I read the wrong point on my script, and when I realized it, I blurted out loudly "eh salah!" which then followed by a laughter from the whole class. But I however notice that my lecturer just pull on that straight face as usual. I hope he didn't have any bad impression on me, and hope it won't affect the evaluation he did towards me.

I was so embarrassed! Not many people know about this habit of mine but I used to do the same thing back when I was in the first semester. I was presenting about Law & Morality and that's when I yelled out "eh salah!" in front of my ex-classmates. 

I don't know how to overcome this clumsiness of mineeeee :C

But somehow I'm glad that we did the presentation very well. The lecturer somehow did compliment o=us a little and that's enough though. Thanks to my group mates for the helps. =)